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| Visiting San Juan: Enjoying Life in my free time when I was Young & Dumb |
Since I was little I enjoyed more to play with legos than to play with barbies. I loved the fact I could build a house, a spaceship, a car, or a big building to later destroy it and build something new. Well, I guess life cached up data to be used in the future because that is exactly what I am doing now; smashing and forgetting about everything to start like a freshman straight out from high school.
Let's begin saying that now at 36 yo I understand that we accept to embrace ways of thinking because we want to be accepted in society. We want others to think high of ourselves, so, we begin with this strange speech of "I want to be a slave in the name of a higher good for society". I say strange because I clearly remember that whenever I was "in the movement" it felt wrong, I did not knew what the hell I was talking about but, because everybody was following that route, I had to take it too.
Another mistake was focusing on money, and to be honest, it never came as I was expecting. Money comes with opportunities and opportunities were not coming as expected. Nor the opportunities I got went as expected. I was exploited by doing the job worth of 5 people, waking up in the early morning to find traffic, so, I had to wake up even more early to finally be super early and waste my time in the parking lot. Yes, I had good money in my hands but it never was proportional to the effort I was doing and when I finally found a good job with growth opportunities, I was laid off with the lie of "we are facing financial problems".
People love to be hypocrites, they say "oh this is life don't be lazy". Reality is that they themselves are fed up with that same lifestyle and often daydream about winning the lottery.
Click here to see: "The Courage to Leave the Herd"
Salaried people giving away hours of free job just because they want the status in a big company but their personal lives sucks. Then hearing them complaining about not having enough time but now they have to pay for the BMW and the house in that exclusive area...
Slaves to the system in the name of status and fake wealth.
I enjoy having my free time, to rest, to think, to create, to have long walks, to sleep properly, to eat good food often, to laugh, to clean my house, to make everyday chores. I value time. Time is wealth. When you are able to do what you want and like, you are wealthy.
Also, it is worth mentioning that as years passed by, I developed another kind of maturity. I started to see life differently, I started to feel differently about material things, about having "pro status" in society...is that really worth it? To sustain a status, to consume my life trying to hold on into society patterns when it comes to success, it is worth it to be stressed 80% of the time?
If I am going to experiment "stress", let it be in an area I truly enjoy, that allows me to rest, to see the sunlight, to go places and to met people often.
Baby Liars (Boomers)
The boom of jobs in the office because "it was the new high standard", benefits that no longer exist such as retiring and getting your pension from that company, etc. Still, people expect you to "have nothing and to be happy because at least, you have a "fancy job". No, I just not deserve a job and a "stable" paycheck, I deserve benefits, I deserve perks just like CEO and COO get. Because reality is, we the "lower force" are indeed the higher force making you money and paying your Mercedez Benz. So, a fair paycheck + benefits + growth + advancement are essentials part of my life equation.
EDUCATION
I was seriously thinking about getting into a Master's Degree because of the current job market situation. But then, I decided for something better.
I tried to enter the healthcare field but here are some facts that are not part of my life equation:
1. My own physical health was going to be affected,
I did not found fair that PTA's are doing the hard tasks while the
doctor just writes and sits down. I should be called "the doctor"
because I am the one treating patients and also, I have been trained to
know what and when to apply the elements of PT. The paycheck is way less
while the job is very strenuous.
2. Sleep schedule being disrupted.
My health and well being are priority and these decisions does not align with my life equation. I was excited to start again and I did not took time to properly evaluate my moves. I was so focused on making money and getting ahead in life. Nothing wrong with this, but we need to move with calmness and aligned with our beliefs. Otherwise, things are not going to happen because it will be incongruent.
Now I have half of a BA in RT and a almost finished AD in PTA that I would love to finish and take the re-validation exam. But right now I will be focusing in the knowledge I need for my immediate goals.
I left both fields (educational phase) and decided to try again in the office, healthcare, and corporate world. This was the last chance I gave to it...
I found an office job in the healthcare area and was fired because I denied doing things that I knew were wrong and shady. That job was shady as hell and after all, they did me a favor. My suspicions are that they hired me so I could take care of the hard work the main secretary pilled up and to do shady stuff so they could have reasons to fire me later. Because as soon as I did everything they ask me to (except singing the receiving of some stuff that I was not authorized by law and other non-sense stuff they were asking me to do) they fired me and did not provided a good reason for it. I asked and they insisted in keep their silence. That poor human resources woman must be living in hell, it showed in her face and in her well being in general. She looked sick.
That happens when you agree to be the puppet of shady companies. Meanwhile, I am in good health and at peace...
Then, I went to the united states believing in good will and stuff and it ended up in greed and someone wanting to take advantage of me and my money. To the hell with that, I rather do things at my own pace and enjoy my time and money.
After all of this I decided to go back to school for something short, effective and with high demand. In the meanwhile, I will be working to make some money and help with house expenses. It is a sacrifice that I am willing to make in order to achieve something greater.
The job market right now sucks, no benefits, no growth opportunities, no paycheck increases unless you are a COO, CEO or any other higher position like a financial executive director with 30+ years of experience.
I never really enjoyed the office/corporate environment. I pursue it because it felt safe and acquaintance to me. But deep down, I wanted to pursue other things (healthcare being one of them, I love science, health, etc. It is fascinating to me! But, can't manage the fact of disrupting my sleep cycle)
Also, let me not dive in the fact that in the corporate/office field you go to 30+ interviews to land just 1 job...at minimum pay...
It is evident that I myself blocked my way up the latter. I am my own example, nobody can deny that the energy we put out there ends up manifesting. I need to say this clear because this is true: it is not what you study, is what you do with it. My lack of interest kept me behind because deep inside I never wanted too pursue a career in office/corporate related. I made poor choices. But, I also need to say that if I never would had been lay off, I probably would had ended in a RH masters degree just to keep going and growing in robotic mode.
Observe your life carefully and you will see your thoughts becoming a reality. I remember that whenever I was walking into my pasts jobs (I was stressed, thinking "oh today is going to be a hard day, it is always the same, blah blah I wish I could go home, rest do something else...)
This is the case of many people, not just me.
It is time to change the code, and fix the algorithm. This time my intentions and interests are clear and the path of least resistance is the way to go.
We face our decisions good or bad. When we finally find the path that feels right to us, we stand by our choices and we keep moving forward. Do not allow strange voices to dictate who you are and who you are meant to become. When we ignore our feelings, our gut, when we deny our intuition we set ourselves for failure.
Follow your intuition, it never fails.
Keep Moving Forward,
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